Post Knowmadic Insights

Two month since we graduated ourselves from Knowmads. Yet, my knowmadic journey hasn’t stopped yet, it probably just started. I am noticing, I am still in the process, in a phase called the “post knowmadic dip”. Before I explain what that means for me, I would like to provide an overview of the whole Knowmads Process, as I see it. An almost impossible thing to explain to people who have not been on this journey, and yet here I’ll try again.

These are phases I like to define:

  1. The Calling
  2. The Roller Coaster Ride
  3. The Post-Knowmadic Dip
  4. The New Perspective

The Calling

You pick it up, or talk to someone, or see it on Facebook, there is this cool place in Amsterdam, called Knowmads, they are different, no grades, no certificates, but a tattoo instead, you work on your own ideas, you create your own schedule, pick the topics you want to study, you learn about sustainability, you become a CHANGE MAKER, a nomadic knowledge worker, a connector. All you need is a laptop, a phone, internet and some tools to connect to yourself and to others and you will make an impact. I came to create my own legacy, a company to revolutionize the development sector. Buckle up and get ready for the ride.

The Roller Coaster Ride

The ride will cost you about 5000 € and believe me it’s gonna be a hell of a ride for so much money, and since you are in charge, you better make and take the best out of it. The ride itself will take you about 7 month, including four weeks vacation period, and has a few major stops along the way, I call them one purpose breaks, a Graduation Party of the former Tribe to be organized and topped each year, a so called Tribe Project, a Nature Quest, a Midterm Presentation, a Personal Project, a Welcome Home Week facilitation and your End Term Presentation and Graduation Ceremony and Party of course. All of these stops are guided by 5 questions and a weekly schedule, where the heart (Monday – Tribal Day), head (Tuesday & Wednesday Workshop of your choice), hand (Thursday & Friday Action days) concept is realized. The key thing in the program is actually the approach of CO-CREATION, where the students decide themselves what they want to learn and integrate, a kind of bottoms up approach as opposed to the traditional education system, where the top down approach is used to tell students what to learn.

Quite overwhelming this degree of freedom, at least for some, depends on you, what you make out of it, but it also opens the opportunity to see whats underlying there inside you, what drives you, motivates you, triggers you. To make the ride even more exciting, add students with different ages, who are at different points in their lives, have  different educational backgrounds, come from different cultures, countries and even continents and you get an unforgettable group dynamical group experiment. And you decide, if you want to stick around and experience the ride or if you want to retreat, not get out of your comfort zone, have a break and take it easy, since there are no grades, no judgements and no expectations towards you, other than that you are in charge of your own experience.

I decided the go full in, embrace it, and had my experience around frustration, insecurities, sense of belonging, connection, friendship, love, rejection, new ideas concepts and perspectives, coaching, judging and being judged, arguments, discussions, moments of joy, intuition, fatherly care and so many more.

It was the utmost importance for me to experience this range of emotions and feelings and allowing them to exists, in order for them to disappear. For me the key was to understand, that during the program aka roller coaster trip itself, I had not enough (head) space, time and distance to understand, digest and integrate, of what we were experiencing or learning there, even though I had very important insights and personal learnings. This might leave you with the impression that this is just another form of self help therapy, but to me it was not, it was an eye opener on how much I was (and I believe a lot of other are too) conditioned on complying with the social norms in order to be accepted, liked, seen, without checking in with myself and notice what is really mine and what not. I was chasing the carrot, without noticing I did not even want it.

I want to share some insight from that Roller Coaster Ride:

  1. My business idea, legacy, was not driven based on what I believed in according to my values, it was driven based on superiority towards someone else (stay truth to myself)
  2. Take a step back, sit on the sofa and chill the fudge out and trust in life and people (let go of control)
  3. People act o lot of time from a place of fear (its not because of me)
  4. I am an amazing human being, perfect as I am right now in my imperfection and I don’t have to proof it to you (all I need is inside myself)
  5. Almost everything is a question of perspective and which story I am telling myself about myself and others (try to see what you can learn out of your own situation, and move on)
  6. I prefer, for now, to work on my own ideas to realize them, instead of helping others to realized theirs (me, me, me, me)
  7. How do I want to live my life (vs. on how do I want to make a living)
  8. It’s all about the breath – if I find myself in a uncomfortable situation, I take a deep breath in, take a pause, breath out and there is my power to choose on how I want to respond to the situation (break the pattern of impulsive reaction)
  9. ……. and many more

The POST-KNOWMADIC Dip

Congratulations! You made it over here. This phase starts right away the day after your own Graduation Party. The void is there and present and you find yourself inside it, there are now Holy Mondays anymore, no workshops, no check ins/check outs, your tribe members are not around anymore and you don’t hang out at Knowmads HQ anymore. You start to miss the, sometimes annoying, Whats App Messages, the long hugs, or the endless emphatic talks in the kitchen, no discussions with Guus, no common lunches or walks around the building, well, just no daily structure anymore. Now you are a change maker, sorry, I am a change maker.

The most important rule at Knowmads: SPEAK FROM THE I! After Knowmads, I know who I am, I know in what world I want to life, I know what I want to contribute and change, I know what field/project I am interested in and I know how to start a business!

But why in the world, do I not get into action, if my mind and heart are ready? Where is the job in the area of sustainability, the updated resume reflecting my experiences in coaching, training and workshop facilitation, my own homepage outlining my vision, intention and purpose to start to change the world and make a difference with my skills. Instead I find myself procrastinating with these things and instead go to yoga, meet people, work voluntarily on several different projects and travel once in a while.

The idea of returning to a paid 9 – 5 job, seems like a diffused cloud, which left a subtle trace of a reality I was once part of, and might be part of again at some point in future, but for now, there seems to be another more appealing reality out there, even though if it comes with a lot of uncertainty.

Well, I consciously decided to give myself until end of the year, a few month, to digest and ponder and create space for whatever future wants to emerge, to use Otto Scharmer’s wording. Subconsciously though, I made this huge plan of action what and what not I have to do, in order to get into action, which lead to frustration inside. The good thing is, that my internal antennas are hyper sensitive and in receiving mode now and I was able to pinpoint the culprit, called fear of the unknown. And yet, I am able to sit with it.

After establishing a daily structure I noticed that there were a few things I had to redefine for myself.

  • What is my definition of work? Do I only work if I receive a monthly paycheck and work for a company? Or can I call work something where I am not paid regularly?
  • What does it mean to have a career and to be successful? Is it to make a certain amount of money per annum or to call myself a certain title (director), or work for a reputable company?
  • How much and how do I monetize my work or services? What value do I put down for myself?
  • Deciding every day, what I want to prioritize and not hide anymore behind what I have to do because it is externally driven

One of the most important post knowmadic insight I had, talking to a fellow tribe member, was around what Knowmads really made me aware of. While in our education system, work places and private surroundings we are always receiving external confirmation and affirmation via grades, certificates, reviews and or compliments we become dependent from that without knowing it. Knowmads broke, yes even disrupted, this pattern, by creating the space and possibility for students to confirm, reaffirm and acknowledge themselves for the skills they acquired during that time, I want to call them SOFT SKILLS. We did graduated ourselves for what we think we learned, integrated and took away after the seven month.

While in school and university the main focus is on HARD SKILLS, the corporate requirement towards people lays on SOFT SKILLS. Here is where it closes the gap, and acts as a bridge between what’s present and what’s needed in todays work environment. Knowmads makes it possible to gain, strengthen and master your soft skills but using other hard skills and methods to help to understand and connect to yourself and hence enables you to connect to others better. The level of self awareness had increased tremendously.

The New Perspective

Having trust that something will present itself, which is in line with my personal answers to the 5 questions asked by the program is a very powerful thing to me. During Knowmads I experienced many times, that if I am ready to let go I create space for things to come to me. For now all I can do is to stay present in this moment, without wanting, trying or to go the easy way (back to my old life).

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